The Buzz Cut

I got a buzz cut on 12/28/10 -- just a few days after my hair started falling out (15 days after first chemo).  I heard it would be easier this way.  It was, I guess.  At least it's a lot less hair going down the drain.... But it sure does make me look so much older.  I'm 56 and used to look much younger....

So here's the deal, I was diagnosed with breast cancer last summer, just after my father passed with lung cancer.  I wasn't surprised.  Something in me always knew I'd get breast cancer.  Or maybe my fear attracted it.  I don't know.  It just happened, and I knew it was supposed to happen.

My first thought was why does this have to happen at a time when I'm alone.  No husband or boyfriend, you know, to comfort me and take some of the burden off of me.  No, I had to do this all by myself.  Friends, yes, really good friends, but not that "special someone."  I knew that my biggest lesson through all of this was going to be to "let go and let God."

and there would be so many more.....